Deviation Actions
If you’re over thinking the results to a harry potter quiz, and wondering what house you’re in…
You are most likely in denial of the reality of your situation.I just realized after much deliberation with myself that
A) I should probably stop over analyzing this as though there were some solution that would result in me getting tangible gains in life from this (mainly money)
and
B) I’m overthinking this, so I’m most likely Ravenclaw.
I just was feeling a little sorry for the noble house of Ravenclaw at the prospect of me being one of them.In reality, I don’t see myself as being worthy of being in Ravenclaw, as I haven’t accomplished what I hoped to see myself accomplishing, and fail to see my progress as a person.
Why is this? Because I cannot see much in the way of tangible results from my drawings (IE I’m not making a crap load of money from them yet).I also do fantasize about rubbing success in the faces of all who have ever hurt me intentionally.
I’m sure that’s a slytherin trait. I’m not ashamed to be myself, which is I have asperger’s and I am transgender.I just could not tell myself what definitive house I should be in, as I thought it to be unfair to pick something out of the proverbial netherspace and say I know that I am or should be one house or another.
I felt really idiotic in making assumptions one way or another.I guess when it all comes down to it, I’ve been making this kind of mental argument with myself for the longest time about who and what I am for most of my life.Just because I’m not as successful as other people does in no way dictate that I would or could not fit in Ravenclaw.
Mentally, I struggle with accepting myself as I am, but generally think that being different isn’t a bad thing. I don’t pretend to be someone that isn’t me.
I’m scared of failure, but I’m even more afraid of succeeding and equally afraid of people having any kind of expectations of me. I’m used to being underestimated and shoved aside as a freak and a moron. I’m used to feeling useless and I’m used to people who would rather spit on me as soon as look at me. I’m used to feeling that in the end if I had to choose between myself and someone else, I’d choose me, because I don’t give any concern for someone I don’t know.
I’m used to my best friend being my friend until it’s no longer a convenience for them. I have grown to be cynical out of experience of how people seem to behave. I am leery of others, and it hurts when I get burned after trusting someone I thought was my friend. Sometimes, I still get stuck in the blame game (self blame).
In the end, I am a human being with a mind of my own. I believe that I control what I think about, and not some outside entity or governing force. Also, I think that with this long spiel containing my personal insights (whether they be insightful or mere ramblings) and the test, that I am indeed better suited for Ravenclaw.
Regards,
Gavriilia
Ps: I still like Slytherin. Slytherin is cool (except for their pure-blood supremacy bull-crap. That should be nipped in the bud).
